I am currently writing a book. A book I am extremely proud of and I can say, for the first time in my life, with 100% certainty, that it is completely original. Everything I've written before, maybe not known to me at the time, but looking back, were just copies of other things. I think all us writer types do that. I think even them there published writer types do that. I hark back to the spy stories which were 24 in disguise. The Spy School story which, I'll be honest, was Harry Potter with guns and helicopters. Then there was the fantasy story, which, I now admit was all too close to a cross between Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. Then, my crowning annoyances, the ideas I had (I don't know about 'had first') but have since been replicated in Doctor Who and The Mortal Instruments. I wrote a book about a group of holy warriors who found demons in the name of a higher purpose, and I had a character who the main character met backwards. Hardly fair really.
In my experience, the most important lesson for any budding author is that you must take the small victories as something huge. You must rejoice when you receive the tiniest line of feedback from any agent, thank the Gods of writing when you manage to whack out 1000 more words than is usual on your average day, and when, on the rare or frequent occasion that curly haired plot twisters (the Moff), or planet-sized-imagination YA Queens (the Clare) write ideas which you may have written yourself, you look at it and realise you have ideas that are getting published and turned into TV shows, you're just not being quick enough, not savvy enough with your cover letters. Also, sometimes, and this is the most annoying thing for a prospective writer: sometimes people have the same ideas at the same time. That's how we got Armageddon and Deep Impact, Bugs Life and Antz, White House Down and the other one.
Which is why I write with trepidation. Has someone got my idea out there? Are they, at this moment writing a book, sitting in a Caffe Nero and dreaming about going on Graham Norton or any one of those booky shows on Sky Arts? I really hope not, because original ideas are difficult to come by these days.
These days, writing a book can be a panic driven experience. Maybe it's just me, but I watch people comment and pass judgement on TV Shows, books and films and worry because I imagine the criticism directed at me. I read an interview with Stephanie Meyer the other day and just thought that however good a writer she may or may not be (and who decides that anyway), maybe she was a woman who wanted to write a story about a girl who fell in love with a vampire. Maybe she did the best she could with the talent she had? Isn't that what we're all supposed to do with our lives? Also, and this is the important part, maybe it's just entertainment.
Which leads me onto my next point. Which again, panics me. A lot of people complain about Doctor Who these days. Every episode that comes out, I scroll through Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook and Youtube and I see complaint after complaint. 'Moffat's writing's terrible.' 'He'll never be as good as Russell T. Davies' and the big one. 'He's a sexist'.
Here's my fear. I've read Divergent. Apologies for people who don't get the reference, but in the book (read it, it's amazing), the main characters are subjected to a simulation known as a 'fear landscape'. In the fear landscape you are asked to confront your greatest fears, each initiate having a different number and ability to cope with them. I always think what would be in mine and so far I have the following:
- moths and other such creatures that fly in your face.
- being eaten alive.
- things like Alien or parasites that burrow inside you.
- being shouted at/in trouble.
- people not trusting me/thinking I'm inept.
- being called sexist/racist/homophobic, or indeed any of the 'ists' or 'phobes'.
I try, each and every day, to think fairly and give things chances, not moan when I could, be patient with people and most importantly, not offend people. I hate offending people. The reason I am writing my current WIP (work in progress for people not up on the lingo like wot I is), is I want to promote fairness and freedoms. Without saying too much, I am doing it in such a way which (to the casual reader, or the reader who won't read to the end), may well cause offence. I can deal with these criticisms because I can easily say 'go read the book, cover to cover and see if you have the same issue'. What does worry me is being called a sexist.
I think about this a lot these days, mainly because I think Steven Moffat is the victim of a lot of unjust overreading. Who must be the most overanalysed piece of entertainment in history. I've heard things like 'I prefer the old companions, where the Doctor travelled with a normal person who was wonderful, now Amy and Clara have mysteries surrounding them, they need the Doctor because there's something wrong with them. Since Moffat wrote the show, the problem has become woman'.
While on some level I can see how this makes sense, I also worry that Moffat just tried to write something that was new and entertaining i.e., not write the same storylines as had been done with all the previous assistants. Write the show with a new and fresh impetus and put his own stamp on things, not carbon copy Russell T. Davies' Who universe. This is what writers do and always will do. Call me a male chauvinist pig, but I look at Moffat's episodes as woman empowering. I always see Amy and Clara saving the day, especially at the close of the episodes. Who saved the Doctor's life every day for a thousand years? A woman: Clara? What is that if not pro-feminist? Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know, but that's the way I see things. There's so many levels to any argument and especially with this argument I do end up thinking - 'is there the tiniest possibility that you're reading into this too much?' In any case, I wish it would stop, because it does scare me, and I'd be willing to bet that, just like me, a lot of these people who are complained about and even hated on all over the internet, did not mean to cause the slightest bit of harm, and actually thought they were writing something entertaining, empowering, powerful and poignant.
Whether the writing of Doctor Who is sexist or not, I don't want to be this. I don't want to inadvertently offend half the planet. I want to be Joss Whedon. A man who writes incredibly strong, awesome female characters and recognised for it. John Green is the same. Which is why I aspire to be like them. But then you have the no. 1 enemy of every writer. A single terrifying line: 'What if I can't?'
I think the biggest thing a prospective author has to learn is to believe that you can. That other people have done so in the past, so you'll be one who continues to in the future. When my book is on the shelves, I shall direct people to this blog post. To say that whatever the outcome, I tried to write a book that was fair, equal and championed all the best things on our planet. Love, fairness, equality and fighting against the worst kind of adversities. I tried to create a message, not a world, where any man, woman, child; whatever sex, religion, sexuality or nationality can read marks on a piece of paper and find something that makes their personal struggle a little easier.
That's my dream.
In the words of Mr Jones, in the immortal words emblazoned in large, friendly letters on the cover of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy:
Don't panic.
